Getting old before becoming extraordinary

it will be my own.. Korean

seventeen....need not say more..

Well, everyone deserves a second chance, maybe,

If I had a second chance..

I try to live in the moment and look to the future.


this moment is miserable and future is in a tunnel that may lead to a psychidelics or death.


or maybe this momnet is not so miserable, less hopeful, or more hopeful.


I'm rambling.. well who cares, it's my blog and noone reads it.


Canada hasn't gotten new Take That CD, stupid...


Instead I got Oasis'  Definitely Maybe and Pet Shop Boys' greatest hits.


they were on 2 for 25$ deal.


What am I gonna do now, you lazy arse....
 

Take That is back... again,

And my obsession has been refueled.

I hope they have their new album in HMV. It's not easy being Takethatter in North America.

Still, I'm quiet hopeful that it will, since the last album was there.


I heard some of the new songs on Youtube,


They are amazing Jason was a far better singer that i expected, so much better than last time.

I expect this one will be much better than last one, I like the last one.


But I think I'll love this one.




Last time I still had lingering guilt about being obsessed with a boy band at age 19.


It is all gone now. I'm not guilty at all. They are good.


I can't wait for next tour DVD to come out.


I think I'll pick up their new CD tomorrow.


I just hope my obsession don't go too overboard.

Oh, why did they have return during my final period especially when I'm struggling LOL.


And btw, their new album is called THE CIRCUS!!!!!!

can it be any more perfect?

Wow, last several episodes have been a bit of a disappointment.

However, this one was.. I don't know, intense.

I wouldn't be able to make any value judgement until watch it again.


But sooo much happened tonight.


Mahone finally got his revenge(!!), preceded by pretty creative torture.


And Bellick's gone...

At first, Bellick was the last person I imagined that I will gorw to like.


When I finally did, he's gone.


Anyway, at least it was noble and heroic, not like that douche Roland.

Still, it was surprising and shocking.


Very, very dramatic.


I thought the writing of the show has gone down hill a bit, but I see a bit of hope of recovering.



Mahone is so fucking hot whe being all emotional, and dramatic and intense...



I just can't get enough of Mahone.

I really hope the story line shifts its more to Mahone soon.

He's been kind of pushed aside recently.


And Gretchen's become very interesting.

At the beginning of the season, she was quiet annoying.


Now she's in a position where she can cross anyone.

Wow, it's so intense.


I need more Mahone, and Mahone/Scofield.

One point I realized how difficult it was to see the whole thing, and take it in.


So I divided, separated, and disassembled it.

Create distraction in order to survive.


Parts and whole.



I only see parts.


Especially when I need to distract myself.

When things are a little too difficult for me to handle as a whole.





Sometimes it's a gift, sometimes it isn't.


I deal with it and learn to love it.



It;s no useful when mixed with my fleeting brain.


Except that it keeps me alive.

"At one point, I understood how i was going to spend the rest of my life with you, knowing that you'll always be waiting for or expcting me to leave you".

"I'm sorry, but I just wanted to touch you".

"If I promise not to fall in love with you, will you have sex with me?"

"I'm falling in love with you".

"Why do you trust me?"

"Everytime you press your body against my back, put your arms around my waist, and lace our fingers together, it somehow makes me believe that you're the one who will catch me when I'm falling down, pull me out when I'm drowning, and hold up the sky when it collapses upon me".

Life is a tragedy in a close-up, a comedy in long shot....


My favorite quote of all time.

Well, I'm a girl. But I still would like to play Chandler from FRIENDS.

He's my favorite character from my favorite show.

Or Maybe Carrie Bradshaw.